Finishing The Day

Just back for a few before I get to bed-EARLY! So hopefully I can get up-EARLY!

I didn't get as much done tonight as I planned but that's ok because I had a semi-surprise visit from Dustie & Abby. :) I love that family so much (and I'm not just saying that because she reads this every day). They are very precious to me and I am very blessed that they allow me to be part of their lives. I did de-decorate my house from Christmas-just missed 2 things this year. And I rearranged furniture some-not sure if I like it. I hate the setup of this apartment but am doing the best I can. I wish I could get everything set like I want to but I never did in Cleveland and was there for almost a year and a half so I should give myself more time.

Ok, random subject of the night... There's a new show on ABC tonight called "Cashmere Mafia" that I just watched because it was on. It's a bit like "Sex & the City" but more modern I suppose and the women aren't all single. They are all very affluent women who have high profile jobs and 3 of 4 are significantly attached to men by either marriage or a serious relationship (the 4th is dealing with homosexual tendencies). While I don't recommend this program as it has serious moral issues, there was a situation presented which is very perplexing. One of the women on the show is married and she knows that her husband is cheating on her. When confronted by her friends, she excuses staying with him by saying that she loves planning holidays for someone, she loves attending events with someone, etc., etc.

My question is this: Why do women feel they have to have a man to be happy or complete? Even Christian women. When did God stop being enough?

Now I don't profess being perfect but I've also known for a long time (even if my actions didn't portray it) that God is the only One who can truly complete me. And I'm learning that lesson even moreso now. He is teaching me day after day that I can be happy, truly joyful even when I am all alone. Do I necessarily like learning this? Not hardly. But I recognize the value of this lesson and am willing to follow wherever God leads me. The feminist part of me just wants women to realize the true worth that we possess on our own, all by ourselves. From my favorite author of the moment and previously mentioned Michelle Hammond, God has blessed us doubly-double the money because we have noone to share it with, double the time because we don't answer to anyone but Him, etc. I truly believe I am going through this "single and loving it" phase at a divine time and I know God is teaching me some lessons that I would not have learned otherwise. And I am beyond speechless and oh so grateful. He knows exactly what we need and how much to give us which is why I don't understand why any woman would stay with a man who very blatantly does not have her best interests in mind when she could have the Creator of the Universe providing for every need she has. While I have no room to talk because I feel desperate & alone often, this deep desire to have an imperfect tangible love instead of the perfect love relationship puzzles me.

Ok, I said early, so early it is. My mind is getting jumbled anyway but I'll be sure to write more on this subject. Happy thoughts for a happy hump day everyone!